Saturday, February 7, 2009

Peaceful Easy Feeling...

That may be an Eagles anthem, but it defines my life perfectly. I have always taken the easy way out, not sweating the small stuff, giving in, ambitious but not too ambitious, studious, but not enough, fighting my way through, but not being consumed by it, caring but not enough to destroy myself… whatever I have done, I have put my soul into it, but then again managed to retain a part of me which is aloof, independent and above everything, a part that has carried me through my failures, through broken relationships, through hardships, through life while I made other plans!

As a kid, I spent most of time in the streets playing while my classmates ran from one tuition to another…
As a teen I managed to gain obscene amounts of weight as I ate away to glory while my friends were on the anorexic highway…
For my graduation, I dropped my “dream” (or my neighbour’s dream) of being an engineer and settled for a “lowly” B.A. in economics…
Then I chose MBA simply because it paid well and not because it was my burning desire to “make a difference” in India Inc when I would rather have done a masters in English Literature…
Went through placements without having to fight it out in a single GD, without sucking up to the Director or without a decent GPA...
But now, for once, I am being strong (or at least trying to be), for once I am not giving in, for once I am not taking the easy way out, for once I am not settling for a compromise, for one last time, I am willing to risk it!

2 comments:

Viswa Sandeep S said...

'broken relationships' - something unheard of..guess u'll need to elaborate on this..may be during the kerala trip..we shall all be waiting to hear you on this..

and whats this strong stance all about?? marriage??

Shimonti said...

@Viswa Sandeep S
Sama, sweetheart, you will never get me sooo drunk to blabber... Kerala or otherwise :)