Friday, November 25, 2011

She's Leaving Home

Tonight is the last night at my current house home. I just loved this place, even though it signified the larger part of my life this year: loneliness, independence and a tinge of nostalgia. But I did learn a lot here: I managed to learn cooking, I managed to run a house by myself, I managed to keep it in shape without a maid and most of all, I learnt to sleep alone and live alone without getting scared.

And somewhere in between, I also learnt to become a decent host and throw some alcohol parties though most of the credit will go to my friends who came with very little expectations.

After everything I had been through, this house was just what I needed: quiet, peaceful, uncomplicated: Far enough to get away from all the bitterness, close enough to avoid the Mumbai peak hour traffic.

I will miss my long walk back home everyday from work which helped me to switch off while I listened to music…

I will miss the calm Sunday evenings, sitting by the window, sipping coffee and reading…

I will miss the long phone calls in the middle of the night, unable to fall asleep after that, as I stared out at the dimly lit Eastern Express Highway…

I will miss my enthusiasm while preparing the “most awesome chicken curry”, which would quickly get dismissed “as bland hospital food” by a certain Jehadi brother…

Most of all, I will miss being a neighbour to the certain Jehadi brother, who surprised me with his kindness, who moved my stuff and set up my kitchen, who listened as I cried on his shoulder, who sat there in my hall binge drinking with me, who wheeled me to the hospital when I got hit by a bike and who, most recently, annoyed me at lunch…

I so hate change, especially the kind which makes me more lonely, more independent and more cold…

5 comments:

Carpe Diem! said...

But, you will make new memories, learn new things and create new habits in this new place. :) Good luck!

Imperfectionist said...

aaaawwww.. I love you :) Bazinga :P

Neil said...

Not to sound like a know it all (ok so maybe I do know almost everything but this isnt about me so I'll shhh myself. Shhhh. Who is making noise? Oh its me (litle madagascar reference there) ) but if you have already defined the outcome of your change then the battle is lost before you've even strapped on your armour and picked up you sword and your shield.

jo said...

the bitterness of change, and the joys of discovering a home away from home

Nefertiti said...

@carpe diem

hopefully pleasant ones... fingers crossed

@impressionist
enough with the SC impersonations. now you are getting on my nerves. and i don't like public display of affection.

@neil
you DO like the sound of your own voice don't you? and you NEVER make sense.

@jo
ahhh... home away from home... that's been my story for a long time now. each time I learn/experience something new.