Monday, July 11, 2011

A Year Ago...

This time last year: this was when it all started and turned your life upside down. It was just another usual weekday morning when you are flipping through the newspaper, having the morning coffee and making idle conversation. And then, suddenly, one thing leads to another, and the next thing you know, your life changes drastically. It doesn’t take a major FIGHT or a major EVENT, but, one fine day, all these small innocuous conversations add up and blow up on your face. Then it’s all downhill: you start arguing about the stupid things that doesn’t even matter, you become insecure about things which aren’t really important and you say things which you can’t take back. What follows is a huge mess that still makes you cringe…

So it’s been a year. Things have changed, circumstances have changed and people have changed. Mercifully, you have survived, though you are still scared: scared of trusting, scared of being emotionally attached and scared of getting hurt. So you pre-empt ANY possibilities which may make you vulnerable and you run: from yourself and the situation. You protect yourself through destruction, you choose loneliness and you freeze, no matter how much you want to let yourself go...

It’s ALWAYS peace over happiness…

15 comments:

Neil said...

Ive always wondered - why do the right people always choose peace and the wrong people happiness?

Nefertiti said...

What do you mean by "right" and "wrong" people?

Neil said...

Since the right people choose the safe option, in this case peace, one is always left meeting the wrong people who choose the path of happiness. It's a bigger picture thing.

ssoggo said...

The wanting to run thing can get really scary, can't it? You think and think and think that you are brave and courageous and that you can face it all, but a mere memory brings on the tears, and you just want to run and hide all over again..

Nefertiti said...

@neil
may be the "right" people got scrwd over in the path of happiness

@ssoggo
tears? mebbe... I wouldn't know. I don't cry you see (except the damn contact lens thing)

Neil said...

@ Nef - Probably. Hope tomorrows post is on how to get the right people to abandon the secure path of peace and embrace the rocky road to happiness. The world would be a much better place if we had the answer to that.

Nefertiti said...

@eil/pricey bitch
No todays post is NOT about that... because U don't know how to get back to the rocky road to happiness. After the INCIDENT, I am scared of ACCIDENTS.

ssoggo said...

Of course. The contact lens thingy

Neil said...

Sigh! And here I thought you were smart. Madam, what I meant is you need to write about how one can get the right people to abandon the lonely path of peace and take a chance with happiness.

P.S - of course, its a contact lens thingy

Nefertiti said...

@neil
I meant if I myself am clueless about the latter, how can I possibly write a "how to" guide on it. Stop milking your friends' vulnerable situations to get tips on hitting on emotionally unstable women. such a loser!

Neil said...

You make it sound as though there are non emotionally unstable women. And now I will run .....

ssoggo said...

Exactly. It's a contact lens thingy.

Nefertiti said...

@neil
stop using my blog to promote your unpopular blogs (moto musings, really??) AND trying to pick up women...

@ssoggo
Of course it is. I can't believe you would second guess me on this.

Neil said...

Marginally better than shimonti-ill ripoffthetitleofaBonJovisong .... You cant blame a guy for trying his luck,even if it is on a blog. We should get you glasses. That way noone will doubt you on the contact lens bit.

Nefertiti said...

@neil
well it IS about my life...
n no glasses plzzz.... my non-existent social life will further go down the drain :(